Dearest Novel,
Remember that day we first came together—the rush
of emotions and first blush of deep recognition? The way your bashful, first blank
page called to me? We had such plans, you and I, hopes and dreams. The future
was a vast, assailable puzzle we were dedicated to unraveling together. I
couldn’t imagine splicing images and their deep meanings with anyone else, or
discovering new vistas, or deciding which direction to travel. We viewed situations
and people through the same lens, although often I was more forgiving. I always
want to wait and give everyone a second chance but you would point out
pages and pages of incriminating examples. We didn’t always get along, that
much is true. Sometimes you just wouldn’t open up to me and occasionally, I
felt you were growing distant and unknowable. But we stuck it out, through
thick and thin, the good times and bad, and if at times, I split an infinitive
or wrote clunky dialogue, or used the word that
even after promising and promising I’d quit—well, it was just my enthusiasm
getting ahead of me. I have never been anything but committed to this
relationship. Time moved forward, the two of us entwined. And we have these
others to think about now, these characters crowding in, and you’ve
been perfectly nurturing even if they can, from time to time, disregard the
structure you’ve imposed. Somehow, you keep it all together. I suppose in any
long relationship, tendencies can rile and frustrate—you, for example, tend to
live a bit in your own world and I, well—I can do the same. It gets on my
nerves when you repeat yourself or go on and on about something you’ve learned.
But you still have the ability to bring me to tears with exquisite phrasing or
a heartfelt big gesture. The magic is still there, that’s what I’m saying. I’ll
be here for you. Let’s keep trudging forward, you and I, all the way to The
End.
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